I am feeling confused. My doctor said that I have avoided hospitalisation for close to a year. Yet, the idea of hospitalisation comes to me once in a while – when I feel that I want to be away from home or when I want to run away from responsibilities. Especially to my daughter… and now to my mother who was recently struck with minor stroke.
I have been wanting to go back to work but my mum will ask, “Who will cook… who will fetch my daughter? I feel that I am getting fatter. I feel that I am not grateful enough. But I guess I am going somewhere. With the organisation Daughters Of Tomorrow’s (DOT’s) confidence curriculum… I hope that I get to finish its seven week-program. I have my doubts but do pray for me.
As confused as I am, I am trying to take one day at a time.
By Fauziah Aman