by Sumaiyah Mohamed
You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needy,
Humble but you’re greedy
Based on your body language,
Your shoddy cursive I’ve been reading
You’re style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is
Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses
– A Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz
I would say I am a mess, my mental illness & me – a beautiful mess 🙂 mashaaAllah.
I see beauty now, I open my eyes and what I was once blind to, I see Allah, my God and it is all lovely.
There is a beauty in simplicity that only recovering from an illness can allow you to feel. Like calmness, a clear mind, going out for a walk and seeing the clouds, what shapes they make, feeling the gentle breeze, a date to the beach with family, carrying a baby in your arms. Blissful moments that Allah bestowed us with, mashaaAllah, the full blessing of which one can better taste when it has almost been taken away, when one has to learn to make effort to see it and appreciate it, to count it like blessings. Alhamdulillah, a hundred times a day, Alhamdulillah.
Everything is patterned intricate and connected to deep
lovely dreams and hopes and nothing bad
is bad but be bold okay you will see
beauty believe babe
Be and live through these
moments of many thoughts of many intricate and connected patterns
no one sees only you see
I am alone but God
is here as I explode butterflies but
angels are here too
and the Messenger of God he cried too
They love me
I try to love me
as I am nice
and enough is God.
Sumaiyah Mohamed is a programme coordinator with Club HEAL. She aspires to be a mental health advocate. She loves reading and writing and walks and hot comforting beverages. She is a mother of a young child.